Daily Miracleburn Diary

Day 1: Sunday- I am supposed to take 2 pills in the morning on an empty stomach. I go ahead and do that and almost immediately I feel a litte funny. Kind of lightheaded and dizzy and nauseated off an on for a moment throughout the morning. It says that I am supposed to have all this energy even though it does not have caffeine in it, so I decided to forgo my morning coffee. Throughout the morning I actually feel like I need to go back to sleep..so much for the "energy boost". At noon, I take the last pill of the day and it doesn't really affect me. During the first half of the day, I didn't really notice any of my appitite being surpressed. However, I went without dinner this day and didn't really get hungry until 9-10 at night. And I decided not to eat since I was going to bed anyway. It says on the box that you are supposed to make sure you drink 8 glasses of water a day. I didn't even come close to this today but I have a plan for tomorrow so hopefully I'll get closer to this goal.

Day 2: Monday- Today I got up and took my 2 pills in the morning and they didn't really make me feel funny like they did yesterday which I was happy about. I stepped on the scale and was about 0.4 pounds lighter than yesterday, but it was still in my normal range so I'm not too excited yet. I was able to drink all my water today though. I found a technique that works for me. I bought 2 colored 32 ounce water bottles from the store and at night I filled them and put them in the fridge. I try to finish one by about 1pm and the other by about 8pm. I guess you do whatever works.

Day 3: Tuesday- Today I woke up feeling a bit skinnier, for whatever that's worth. I didn't wake up with raging hunger like I usually do, which was interesting. I stepped on the scale and was 0.2 lbs less than yesterday, but still in my "normal" range so still not real excited, but I guess we're going in the right direction. Today I will try to finish my last water before 8pm. I had to wake up around midnight to pee and who wants to do that every night?

Day 4: Wednesday..well, today I woke up and checked the scale and I was right back up where I started..so since I have been feeling no effect on my appetite, my energy or my weight, this is where my journey ends..well, my miracleburn journey anyway. My weight loss journey will continue probably for the rest of my life. Last night (Wednesday night) I was so discouraged about everything that I decided that I was going to call the doctor and see if there was anything she could suggest for me. This is real desperation for me people..I hate going to the doctor and I certianly felt as though I have had my fill of them during my pregnancy. But I feel hopeful she will be able to offer me some suggestions. I think what has discouraged me so much recently is my realization that summer is less than 3 months away. When I first started my endevor at the beginning of December I made a goal that I would be skinny by summer..in plenty of time to get cute summer clothes. I gave myself 7 months to lose 30 or so pounds. That doesn't seem terribly out of the question does it? I thought it was plenty of time. Anyway, I have since changed my goal weight to reflect what I have come to accept is a permanate side effect of pregnancy and will never go away such as my hips and other womanly attributes =) But I'm okay with that..it is probably unreasonable to assume that I could reach my highschool weight after having 5 children and really upon further consideration, I don't really want to. I actually have learned to like these new features. Anyway, I still don't know for sure how much added weight I should count on, but I know that the weight is not as important as how I feel about it. And right now I am not happy. Happier than I was in December for sure, but not completely content, nonetheless. Isn't it funny how 3 words can combine to make one word like that. I like that word..nonetheless. Well, okay, I've dragged on long enough and there's dishes to be done and house to be cleaned so I will leave it at this.