Family Addition

Several months ago, my husband Josh and I decided to start trying to add to our family. We currently have 2 boys, Bryce who will be 6 in July and Jayden who just turned 3 in March. Both of us were very much wanting to have a little girl. Especially me, who has not only aspired to being a mother all my life, but always had pictured myself as a mother of at least one daughter. All my life I've done things to that end such as saving all of my prom dresses from high school and my cheerleading outfit from senior year for the intent of giving them to my daughter(s) to use for dress up someday. I've always pictured making cookies together in the afternoon and imparting all of my baking "wisdom" to her as she grows. Of course you can do that with boys, but it's just not quite the same.

Well, to make a long story short, we didn't get pregnant when I thought we would. With both of the boys, I got pregnant either by accident or with only one attempt, so my expectations were that the same thing would happen this time as well. But my expectations were wrong and it took several months. Looking back however, I am glad for the time. God really worked on my heart during those months. He taught me some valuable life lessons that I will remember and carry with me for the rest of my life. Among those things was this: One of the verses that we Christians quote to ourselves on a regular basis when we want something is Psalms 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." I had always interpreted that as long as I was delighting myself in the lord (whatever that means) that I could get whatever I wanted. Well, I learned that I had it backwards. I found that when you are connected to the Lord and there is something that your heart desires that is good and true and pure, what I learned is that He is most likely the one who put that desire in your heart. And there is a reason for that.

Well, I finally got pregnant. And I was thrilled, so was Josh. More to come later in the story...